am i wanting too much by waiting for marriage for a house?

i still feel kinda weak. it takes a little more work to walk up the steps and to get out of the car. whatever it is i hope its figured out, i dont want it happening again! i would much rather not go to the hospital again. i really wonder if theyre just gonna do a crappy ass job and pretend they tested the blood and tell me i have nothing wrong. cuz there has to be something, ive had heat sensitivity for so long and thats a symptom of thyroid issues.

todays been a pretty good day besides the insomnia X_x its 5:10 on june 4 but this will count as june 3 since i havent slept ^__^ its just me and xxx in the new house tonight. hmmm too bad i have my period, this house needs to be christened ^//^ i cant wait until we get a place of our own! itll be so much better! but i dont know if i want to just yet... i mean its bad enough we live together (well im not saying its bad and i dont like it), but once you live together comfortably and without other people/family/friends living with you, then it wont feel special when you get married. i just want when we get married to feel new and happy, not regular and same-old, same-old, ya know? i want to move to a house of our own toether when we decide to get married. but maybe im wanting too much, its not like we can really continue living like this, but i kinda want to until we get married. i want that relief and happiness of a place all our own to be what we feel when we get married. i dont know, i just dont want our wedding day to be just another day but with people, food and fancy attire...oooh how good it will be if i can fit into a size 0!

1/4 spaghetti: 127cal 2:00p
1 Mc Donalds soft serve ice cream cone: 150cal 10:45p (purge 10:48p)
4 pc Mc Donalds chicken nuggets: 190cal 10:45p (purge 10:48p)
1/2 Mc Donalds Sweet N' Sour sauce: 25cal 10:45p (purge 10:48p)

508cal under
492cal eaten
365-10%= 328.5cal purged
163.5cal net total