be new:

To be thin is to be beautiful, to feel beautiful, to be happy, to be new. 新しいになります。 I hope, someday, to see myself as others see me, and to be as light and happy as the leaves that blow in the wind or a beautiful balloon drifting up into the clouds...












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Hullo my little blueberry tea cups! ^__^ Thankyu for reading and being a part of my life. You help me so much. You give me more strength, determination, inspiration than if I were to be dealing with this alone and no one to speak of it to. I love and appreciate every one of you deeply! I hold each of you dear to my heart.

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ps.- I do not teach or wish to inspire eating disorder for it is a sickenss, not something that can be learnt. Eating disorder midset is something one is cursed with that most likely progresses slowly over the years of one's life: appearing first as a simple diet, moving forward in the form of ednos, and possibly, sadly hitting many full on as anorexia/bulimia. If you do not agree with blogs or people that support the lifestyle of the eating disordered, please leave. This blog is not for you. Please do not judge me b'coz I support others through their difficultiesor b'coz I seek support myself, for we need friends and people to talk to about our problems just as you do. Please do not proceed to tell me what I am doing is wrong, I am unhealthy, I am going to die, I need to gain weight, etc. I know what I am and what I am doing, it is not for you or anyone to tell me. I mean no disrespect for any concern; however, gaining weight and simply eating will not help me. It will make me sicker by causing mental torments.
Showing posts with label job. Show all posts
Showing posts with label job. Show all posts

Saturday, June 26, 2010

i hope im soon surrounded by the smell of coffee, cool air and a focused atmosphere


thats a thinspo drawing i did a while ago
what'dya think? ^__^


i kinda screwed up today but i had no choice really. he insisted i get something so i went for reduced fat, of course. *sigh* still 320cal O.o but im still under and im not eating anything else today! i still have control =)

i filled out an app for starbucks. im excited and i really hope it turns out for me! its about time something does, i need a job and a little good luck, turn-around, pick-me-up, right about now ^__^ i spent all day yesterday doing research and looking up any tips on working there. got my hopes up a little too high so im trying to lower them cuz chances are i wont get the job. i have a bad habit for hope-upping and then when it doesnt turn out i get disappointed like a little pathetic baby -__- i so need to stop that haha! i was hoping for a job at the library so i could walk to work and burn some calories, but they arent hiring :P

actually! i have a little bit to be excited about! i started up exercising again a few weeks ago and im finally getting better at it! :D i can last longer without breaks. i had stopped exercising for about 3 months O.o i know, bad girl! bad!

well im relieved i was informed tonight that i have to wake up early tomorrow for...IHop -__- ug! im happy though cuz i have time to look up what im having. probably an omelet or something i dunno, ill figure it out!

5 baby carrots: 6cal 1:30p
vinegar: 0cal 1:30p
1 Honey Maid graham cracker: 30cal 1:30p
3 peach wedges: 22.5cal 4:50p
1 baby carrot: 2cal 4:50p
1 Starbucks reduced fat very berry coffee cake: 320cal 5:20p (purge 5:50)

119.5cal eaten
380.5cal eaten
320-2/3= 214.4cal purged
166.1cal net total