be new:

To be thin is to be beautiful, to feel beautiful, to be happy, to be new. 新しいになります。 I hope, someday, to see myself as others see me, and to be as light and happy as the leaves that blow in the wind or a beautiful balloon drifting up into the clouds...












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Hullo my little blueberry tea cups! ^__^ Thankyu for reading and being a part of my life. You help me so much. You give me more strength, determination, inspiration than if I were to be dealing with this alone and no one to speak of it to. I love and appreciate every one of you deeply! I hold each of you dear to my heart.

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 ps.- I do not teach or wish to inspire eating disorder for it is a sickenss, not something that can be learnt. Eating disorder midset is something one is cursed with that most likely progresses slowly over the years of one's life: appearing first as a simple diet, moving forward in the form of ednos, and possibly, sadly hitting many full on as anorexia/bulimia. If you do not agree with blogs or people that support the lifestyle of the eating disordered, please leave. This blog is not for you. Please do not judge me b'coz I support others through their difficultiesor b'coz I seek support myself, for we need friends and people to talk to about our problems just as you do. Please do not proceed to tell me what I am doing is wrong, I am unhealthy, I am going to die, I need to gain weight, etc. I know what I am and what I am doing, it is not for you or anyone to tell me. I mean no disrespect for any concern; however, gaining weight and simply eating will not help me. It will make me sicker by causing mental torments.

Sunday, February 10, 2013

back from holiday

So! It has been around 2 months! I had a splendid holiday home! Turns out I'm moving back!

Bad thing is that the Internet is so extremely spotty that it makes it near to impossible to blog. I've been using Instagram. Since it is an app, it is much easier and I am able to post things quickly and easily.

kiyomimaro is my name there if you'd like to follow me!

I'll keep this blog for when I secure a new job and get a laptop with Internet for Uni. I'm not disappearing ^__^

I am currently maintaining 43kg (95 lbs)! I really want to lose to 88 (8 is a safe and even number so two of them is swell!), but I am pushing underweight as it is and I really want to try my hardest! I have bad days still, but who doesn't? I am trying to remember to chin-up on bad days and remember what I am fighting for.

kiyomi
書く … alice-k コンポーズ 11:24 PM

1 comment:

  1. Peridot (G+P)February 13, 2013 at 1:39 AM

    Oh crap, I don't have instagram.

    I missed you while you were away and I'll keep missing you until you are able to come back.

    I'd say maintain where you are so you don't end up going to hospital instead of University. It's really fucking hard to study and do well when your body is eating your internal organs to stay alive. (Hint: being really underweight shrinks your brain too. Your brain is an energy-hungry organ)

    LOVE YOU KII, YOU ARE AMAZING *Hug attack*

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