be new:

To be thin is to be beautiful, to feel beautiful, to be happy, to be new. 新しいになります。 I hope, someday, to see myself as others see me, and to be as light and happy as the leaves that blow in the wind or a beautiful balloon drifting up into the clouds...












Welcome
Hullo my little blueberry tea cups! ^__^ Thankyu for reading and being a part of my life. You help me so much. You give me more strength, determination, inspiration than if I were to be dealing with this alone and no one to speak of it to. I love and appreciate every one of you deeply! I hold each of you dear to my heart.

BEFORE JUDGING, PLEASE READ

ps.- I do not teach or wish to inspire eating disorder for it is a sickenss, not something that can be learnt. Eating disorder midset is something one is cursed with that most likely progresses slowly over the years of one's life: appearing first as a simple diet, moving forward in the form of ednos, and possibly, sadly hitting many full on as anorexia/bulimia. If you do not agree with blogs or people that support the lifestyle of the eating disordered, please leave. This blog is not for you. Please do not judge me b'coz I support others through their difficultiesor b'coz I seek support myself, for we need friends and people to talk to about our problems just as you do. Please do not proceed to tell me what I am doing is wrong, I am unhealthy, I am going to die, I need to gain weight, etc. I know what I am and what I am doing, it is not for you or anyone to tell me. I mean no disrespect for any concern; however, gaining weight and simply eating will not help me. It will make me sicker by causing mental torments.

Saturday, September 29, 2012

aimless thoughts of tea

I've been increasingly fixated on tea and tisane! It begun as a child. Being Japanese my grandmum prepared genmaicha/brown rice tea with every dinner, to cleanse and flush the body of the day's intake: whatever oils, grease and fats that one puts into their body. Particularly for dinner though really. I don't know of anyone else, but growing up it was always dinner that tended to be the more heavy, substantial meal of the day for us. For the more heavy meals {ie.- fried shoyu chicken, fried nasu/eggplant, pizza, or any other rarity of fast food dinners}, she would serve the children a citrus fruit for dessert to help break down the toxins so our bodies could properly prepare for the new day during sleep. Now, I don't know how much've it is true or if it was simply a tradition, but till this day I follow it. I don't really care to know if it hods any truth to it b'coz it makes my mental and physical feel better. It does something positive for me which is splendid. ^__^

I've managed to branch out slowly over the years, moving from genmaicha to maccha/green tea b/coz of it's metabolism benefits, then to black teas and oolong teas. I've recently, in the past several months, been building up a flavourful collection of both true teas, tisane and also tea-tisane blends and fusions. I've actually planned to purchase a gift set of holiday teas later tonight! I'm brimming over it like the cheeseball I am! ^///^ It has 9 types of very Wintery, Christmasy blends. I cannot wait till it gets here!

Right now I've got:
Genmaicha
Maccha {or matcha as it is wrongly spelt in romaji}
Black
White
Fusion green and white
Chamomile
Chai White
Lemon ginger
lemongrass spearmint
Mango passionfruit
Passionfruit and papaya
Acai
Blueberry

And for those dessert craving days, just add some Truvia 0 calorie natural sweetener and you've got your dessert craving fix!
Peppermint
Chocolate hazelnut
Nutcracker
Licorice spice
Vanilla caramel truffle
Vanilla chai

inspiration

Photobucket

Photobucket

Photobucket

getting the swing of things again

Today went well, even though I was sick and had to go to work. Ended up I skipped lunch. I just didn't feel like lunch I s'pose, I don't know really. I had a few baby carrots, some strawberries and I think that was good enough for me. I always bring a fruit and veggie snack along with a lunch to work. Subway really isn't all that healthy at all, it's just a hoax for money. A lot've people, those who swear by it being the reason they are at a healthy weight, just don't see that it is b'coz they actually exercised. All that bread and cheese and mayonnaise cannot, and I mean cannot, be good for anyone on a daily basis. I know. I had gained 15lbs in a few weeks doing this at one point! O.o This was last August when I thought it was okay to eat it b'coz of Subway's popular health mask. Not true one bit.



I've been working on toning and am glad to say it is showing some progress! I have some abs noticeable now, and my upper arms don't jiggle quite as much as they once did! I hate that wave jiggle. It is disgusting. Though I've to say the most revolting thing about my body that absolutely kills is that I can feel my thighs touch again! Oh how that disturbs me! I cannot wait to make that disappear!



Elegance.
Thin.
Frailty.