be new:

To be thin is to be beautiful, to feel beautiful, to be happy, to be new. 新しいになります。 I hope, someday, to see myself as others see me, and to be as light and happy as the leaves that blow in the wind or a beautiful balloon drifting up into the clouds...












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Hullo my little blueberry tea cups! ^__^ Thankyu for reading and being a part of my life. You help me so much. You give me more strength, determination, inspiration than if I were to be dealing with this alone and no one to speak of it to. I love and appreciate every one of you deeply! I hold each of you dear to my heart.

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ps.- I do not teach or wish to inspire eating disorder for it is a sickenss, not something that can be learnt. Eating disorder midset is something one is cursed with that most likely progresses slowly over the years of one's life: appearing first as a simple diet, moving forward in the form of ednos, and possibly, sadly hitting many full on as anorexia/bulimia. If you do not agree with blogs or people that support the lifestyle of the eating disordered, please leave. This blog is not for you. Please do not judge me b'coz I support others through their difficultiesor b'coz I seek support myself, for we need friends and people to talk to about our problems just as you do. Please do not proceed to tell me what I am doing is wrong, I am unhealthy, I am going to die, I need to gain weight, etc. I know what I am and what I am doing, it is not for you or anyone to tell me. I mean no disrespect for any concern; however, gaining weight and simply eating will not help me. It will make me sicker by causing mental torments.

Tuesday, June 12, 2012

Missing this place

Oh how very long it has been! Dears, whoever of you ate still there, how I've missed you all terribly! So very much has happened in my time away. I, frustratingly, have had but only rare access to the net since my last entry. I know not how often I will be here anymore. I am still struggling with Ana and having good days and bad. Do not take it from me, for I'd hate to crush any dreams of being better; but for me, there is no such thing as recov my darlings. This will be a part've me for the remainder've my life. As for now, I am not doing too badly. I've acquired a darling pet rat who is amazingly smarter than I had ever imagined! She is my sanity, as odd as that may read. Without a pet to care for and need me, I found I feel rather lonesome in life. I am still working at Subway haha! Though I've to say I'm quite excited to begin my search for a job as a dental assistant in the near future. My savings for a much needed vehicle is coming along swimmingly as well! With much regret, I've to go now. I hope to be back very soon!

2 comments:

  1. I miss you so much!

    Glad to hear that you are still alive. I hope you're well. Take care of yourself, ok?

    *hugs*

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