grocery list and some good recipies!

as you probably know, im a list maker ^//^ so ive made a list of what i plan to buy once i get a steady income...though i found out today that kmart is no longer hiring; after i waited almost a month for my app to be reviewed and was told it would be gotten too. i was so hopeful -__- oh well. anyway heres what i got!

ahi
artificial crab
avocado
bananas
bean sprouts
broccoli
cabbage
canned crab
canned salmon
carrots

celery
crab
edamame
eggs

fat-free cheddar

fat-free cream of celery

fat-free cream of mushroom
furikake
garlic
grain bread
green beans
green grapes
green onions

i cant believe its not butter
japanese veggies
lettuce
mushrooms
nametake
oatmeal

oatmeal bread
ochazuke nori
onions
okinawan sweet potatos
panko
plain yogurt
plums

portabella mushrooms
rice

skim milk
salmon
spinach
spinach tortilla
sour cream
soy milk
swiss
tomatoes
tofu
wakame
won bok
yogurt

ive made several recipes, most of which i thought of as i made my grocery list. i tried to make them simple and require the same ingredients so i have more choices with less groceries to buy. the majority of them have a japanese/asian twist to them to meet my taste buds ^__^

1) rice, edamame, wakame, nametake
2) rice, tofu, salmon or ahi, shoyu
3) stir fry: rice, crab, mushrooms, tofu, broccoli, bean sprouts, green beans, shoyu, sesame oil, salt, pepper
4) stir fry: cabbage, salmon or ahi, mushrooms, green beans, celery, garlic or shoyu, pepper
5) low-cal seafood sandwich: crab, salmon or ahi, plain yogurt, grain or oatmeal bread, pepper
6) salmon and mashed potatoes meal: salmon, mashed potatoes, mushrooms, garlic, onions
7) mushroom burger: portabella mushrooms, salmon or ahi, lettuce, tomatoes, avocado, plain yogurt, pepper, lemon juice
8) salmon patty: salmon, potato, eggs, onion, panko
9) fry rice: rice, broccoli, fat-free cream of mushroom, fat-free/skim milk, onions, low-fat/reduced-fat cheddar
10) broccoli soup: broccoli, fat-free cream of celery, celery, onions, mushrooms, low-fat/reduced-fat cheddar
11) curried tofu rice: rice, tofu, mushrooms, curry powder

I CANT WAIT TO GET A JOB AND EAT HEALTHY! :D ive been having a chain of several bad body image days recently T.T i mean, i almost always have a bad body image but lately it has been much worse. i need to do something soon and change the way i eat. its bad for me mentally and health wise. as long as i eat healthy i feel better mentally. this morning i had toast with a thin layer of honey, blueberries and blueberry tea and i felt great all day and defo more motivated! no grease, no butter, no oil, just a smile and my mind accepting food and actually enjoying it! :3 starting my day with one good food decision helps me tremendously throughout the day!



gosh i want to COOK! i miss cooking! i cooked quite a bit and have always wanted to try new recipes and try my hand at making my own. too bad no one would eat my cooking really haha! its all made with veggies and asian flavors so...more...for me? ...not sure i can relate to that statement today but im trying...i can on some days :P ive been good about keeping my calories above 500 though. when i first started recov i was only able to eat 300cal a day. well, when i regained control of myself after my out of control pre-recovery binging which i regret HORRIBLY! being re-introduced to food after eating 200cal or less a day is rrreeeaaalllyyy bad! it made me binge :P i went back to sneaking downstairs and eating a ton almost everyday, sometimes 2-3x its appalling how much i can eat and bloat during a binge! O.o and the wost part about it is i couldnt purge anymore if i wanted to stay here so...i gained weight in all the wrong places -__- most recoveree's that eat way more than they are used to without gradual transition usually gain all the weight back into their mid/lower section...ya, isnt it nice how you find that out after the fact? -__-

ive been reading this book entitled "Dracula, My Love". im only a few pages in but im in love with it! ive had it for 2 weeks and havent read much :P but im getting more into it now.