be new:

To be thin is to be beautiful, to feel beautiful, to be happy, to be new. 新しいになります。 I hope, someday, to see myself as others see me, and to be as light and happy as the leaves that blow in the wind or a beautiful balloon drifting up into the clouds...












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ps.- I do not teach or wish to inspire eating disorder for it is a sickenss, not something that can be learnt. Eating disorder midset is something one is cursed with that most likely progresses slowly over the years of one's life: appearing first as a simple diet, moving forward in the form of ednos, and possibly, sadly hitting many full on as anorexia/bulimia. If you do not agree with blogs or people that support the lifestyle of the eating disordered, please leave. This blog is not for you. Please do not judge me b'coz I support others through their difficultiesor b'coz I seek support myself, for we need friends and people to talk to about our problems just as you do. Please do not proceed to tell me what I am doing is wrong, I am unhealthy, I am going to die, I need to gain weight, etc. I know what I am and what I am doing, it is not for you or anyone to tell me. I mean no disrespect for any concern; however, gaining weight and simply eating will not help me. It will make me sicker by causing mental torments.

Sunday, November 14, 2010

Puppie Crochet ^__^

ive decided i am not going to worry about losing weight to 95lbs, or 89 if i was in japan...haaa i wish...or any other specific number. i am just going to eat as healthily as possible and lose (in a healthy manor) until i can lay on my side at night and not feel my thighs uncomfortably sticking to each other, as they get sticky with sweat from my body heat X.x and when i do not have that mostly permanent red line across my tummy from the fold ive there X.x and until my belly button ring can dangle cutely in my belly button rather than lay on my tummy (that is just ungodly!). those are the three things i will watch for. when i have succeeded in all three, i will maintain.

ive made myself a crochet business! ive called it Puppie Crochet ^__^ ive made a facebook page for it and boyfriend is working on making a craig's list so the sweaters can be bought. ive already a few people who want to buy the dog sweaters i make, its quite fun! so far i make sweaters, booties, costumes and snoods =) im hoping it will work out and i can actually make some progress with this! if it turns out well, i will have money that i need for Christmas! (seeing as i dont think i am going to get hired in time) i love getting friends and family gifts! if i had a choice id choose to buy for them and not myself =)

in the picture is our italian greyhound, girper. aka- hyden, girpen hyden, or gripper haha! so cute! i was surprised how well she modeled that sweater! i had found that balloon at the store that night and decided it would complete the look if i tied at round her neck ^__^ cute isnt she?

2 comments:

  1. She's adorable!

    Those three things at the beginning are exactly the same things that I look for! Exactly the way you put it.

    Congratulations on your business venture =] What sizes do you make the sweaters in? I have pomeranians and I love dressing them up lol

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  2. aw the dog is so cute adn ya grat idea for a bunsiness hun
    those 3 thinga rea good just stay healthy hun

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