alice...is that...your ass??? O.o

Beck asked me in a comment on "so...underweight isnt underweight if its underweight because everyone else is fat...its normal"

"May I inquire as to where you're obtaining your data? For instance, how you know the average BMI of some Japanese girls is as low as 16? Just curious, because that would mean that I am actually at a very normal weight (were I to live in Japan, that is)!"

Beck, i got my data from WHO (the world health organization) and other medical site articles. im sorry i did not save the addresses otherwise id give them to you if you wanted them. i pulled the information from 3 different medical sites that had an article on health in japan.

you know, i really want to live there! the more i think about it and the more i leanr about it, gosh its heaven! i could be 85-89lbs and not look gross to people, i can be accepted, shyness wouldnt be mistaken for hate because many of them are shy as well, alot of them bycicle or walk everywhere so they are in shape (in the cities where i want to live anyway), they are in a BIG health and exercise boom right now so they are fit/muscular (in a beautiful girl-figure way), their style is amazing, their stuffed animals are cute as fuck! (im a big stuffed animal lover ^^) i wouldnt be looked at as a slut/hooker/ho for the clothes i wear because thats what they wear (i swear america is close-minded-sex-focused/driven). ok, anyway...

i took some pics to show you guys what i look like now. i want to make updates on my progress. please, if you laugh or cringe, be kind and dont tell me haha! seriously though...dont X.x i gained all the weight back into my lower body! :/ sooo thats what 10 extra lbs of recov-binging will do huh? well, if i wanted to know and this was natures way of giving me the answer, i say "i didnt ask! it was the person sitting next to me!"

i drew lines on a couple of them to show you what i will change in time hopefully as i eat healthier and start doing more. and i have a question for you! i do alot of squats, does that cause your but and thighs to get bigger/bulk up or does it slim them down? i know spot reduction exercises are a load of bull because you have to eat right and do cardio to burn away the fat to actually see your toned muscles. but im trying to find the right exercise to tone and slim my thighs and but down. those are my worst/most embarrassing feature, the reason i tip toe in the nude/bikini/underwear. my tummy pooch i can deal with if it never goes away but id like to feel comfortable in a bikini so my thick thighs have GOT to go!

front view: cant see my abs (though they're there) cuz like i said, ive fat to burn :P and those arent love handles, they're my hips haha ive got larger ones.

side view: see my tummy pooch?

ahhh there! MUCH better when i pull all the chubbiness away! i can live without seeing my ribs...unless im in japan ha! but this is what i need to do.

now on the the more embarrassing lower part of my body. no laughing now! giggling is permitted XD if you were able to muster out a "she doesnt look too bad! she's skinny at least." well, its about to go away. i admit it looks like i have an okay/if its not gonna get any better-gap there, but i was to shy to let them touch and show you girls how chubby it makes me look :P i bowed my legs.

EDIT: and one more thing, its not a camel-toe haha! ^__^ its a polka dot XD i just realized it

my backside: once again, its not love handles (or my tummy pooch looking bigger than it is), its my large hip bones haha i think they make the most difference when im underweight. if it werent for them i think it'd be much less noticeable. also, my but and thighs look fatter than they are cuz my left leg in the background sort of blends in with my right leg XP but ya, ive a huge but! no offense to black girls but i have a black girls behind O.o
(just in case, let me state that i am not racial, i have many black friends. they look fine with big backsides, it suits them) anyway imagine wearing a bikini with that! oooh how my body betrays my shameful horror of weakness in unhealthy eating and lack of cardio :P

i am the japanese girl who lacks the beautiful bodice of a japan girl...