my binge secret

These are my babies! ^__^

Novel is the tan one, Mappy is the brown one.

Mappy will be 1 on December 28 and Novel's birthday is June 26.

 

I cheated last night and ate before 8pm. I had a bowl of iceberg lettuce, shredded spinach, olives and 2 tomato slices at 6pm. A customer walked in and asked how we were doing. My coworker replied: I'm fine, she's stuffing her face over there.

I hoped she was joking but it put off my appetite nonetheless. I felt so greedy and disgusting I had to throw it away.

That has been my secret that cut my binge cycle. I feel I can let it out now. Intermittent fasting. I'm following the 20/4 schedule. I have a 4 hour feeding window and I fast for 20. I love how it's called a feeding window. Reminds me of cattle {not that I don't absolutely LOVE cows and think they are super cute!!!}. Pets and animals humans care for don't get to choose when or what they eat. They eat in a controlled manner b'coz they have no choice. I just like being reminded that I have to eat in a controlled manner, and that I should not have a choice b'coz I turn into an animal when I am given the liberty.

I usually wake at 1 in the afternoon, go to work at 3, I don't get home unil 10:15p and I go to sleep around 3am.

Whatever food is left undigested before bed, continues to be digested during sleep. After the food is digested, you are in a fasted state. While fasting, fat is first burned before muscle. So to make use of that, I just don't eat during the day in order to keep that going. Also, when I eat breakfast, the feeling of hunger is more prominent throughout the day. My stomach is a lot more needy when I eat 3x or 6x a day vs when I save my meals for the end've the day. Not to mention, it's that first taste of food that usually causes my binge mode. So If I hold off and wait, it ensures I've a better chance of maintaining my control.

 

My feeding window is between 8pm - 12midnight {though I usually try to wait until I get home to have anything b'coz I don't like to eat in front've people}. Most often, I'll have a baked sweet potato or yam with some small something like green beans or a spinach and red pepper salad; an hour later I might have a Weetabix with 1tsp of reduced fat peanut butter or raisins; then another hour or two later I usually finish my day with an apple and a few baby carrots for dessert or a cup of cereal in a half cup've almond milk.

By eating this way I've finally gotton used to and re-learned to love the feeling of hunger! I'm so happy! The sweet potato provides most've my energy for the next day and a lot've times I'll have some black coffee throughout my day. If I really feel I need something during the day, I'll stop by and get a sugar-free specialty coffee and have that at work. {fyi- I found that sugar-free is almost always lower calorie than redued fat/fat-free/low sodium. If I'm not sure the calories during an emergency decision, I always opt for sugar-free} I don't dare eat anything from my job. Apples or a salad are the exceptions. I bring my own 8 o'clock food if I decide I'll eat at work. Usually an apple and some carrots or a cup of soup or dry cereal. Though, I find it's better for me if I just wait till home; then I'm able to relax. At home I can actually sit and have my meal, I can chew thoroughly and not have to rush to eat between customers, it's more satisfying and feels like I've eaten. At least this way, of I do binge at night, I have calorie room so I don't go over. I've been at or under everyday lately. Mostly at rather than under. I'd like to change that, in time.

Thanksgiving and it's leftovers have made it difficult. I strayed off and on during the past few days but nothing too horrid thank goodness! Wish me luck to continue!