it's hard to say goodbye

Today is going to be a sad day...

Rob's dog, Wubit, is most likely going to the vet to be euthanised... She is his dog, but I've known her for nearly four years now... I didn't feel the death of his last dog, Buster, as much as I will this one. I never really spent time with Buster b'coz he was very old and never went anywhere or did anything. Wubit, however, before she began to've trouble walking, she'd go with us everywhere and sleep in our room with us nightly. After we moved, to get to our room there are steep wooden steps she had to manage. At first she tried and could make it but after a while she began to have accidents, falling down the steps b'coz her legs didn't have the strength for them. Eventually she stopped trying. She had a seizure, about a month, that took some movement from her hind legs and her bladder control. She can't bend her knees much anymore, she goes on herself in her sleep and I think her vision is going as well. I never believed in euthanisation, but she just seems in so much pain and discomfort... The poor girl...

She may not be my dog, but it still makes me so sad to think about it. I can't imagine what Rob feels, he has had her since she was a pup and could fit in his hand.

I worry that I'll get a call from my mum one day, saying that my dog has passed. I've had her since she was a pup as well. 1999, 13yrs ago. Her birthday was on the 1st of October. If she passed while I was here, I'd feel so much regret that I didn't come back as soon as I'd promised her. I've been away for 3yrs, going on 4. I haven't seen her in 2yrs. The last time I saw her, she was still her spunky puppy self, hyper and romping around with sticks and bones. Recently my brother sent me a picture've her and she's aged. She looks old... I'd like to move home permanently sometime next year. I hope and pray she lives until then so I can spend some time with her before it's her time...

Sorry for the sad post.

Update: We just got home... She is gone... I know she wasn't my dog but it still hurts and I still love her as though she was.

Goodbye Wubs, you've been a good girl. You made me smile, you protected my ratties, and helped me through the hard times when I missed my girl at home. I love you and am glad you aren't in pain anymore.
❤