be new:

To be thin is to be beautiful, to feel beautiful, to be happy, to be new. 新しいになります。 I hope, someday, to see myself as others see me, and to be as light and happy as the leaves that blow in the wind or a beautiful balloon drifting up into the clouds...












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Hullo my little blueberry tea cups! ^__^ Thankyu for reading and being a part of my life. You help me so much. You give me more strength, determination, inspiration than if I were to be dealing with this alone and no one to speak of it to. I love and appreciate every one of you deeply! I hold each of you dear to my heart.

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ps.- I do not teach or wish to inspire eating disorder for it is a sickenss, not something that can be learnt. Eating disorder midset is something one is cursed with that most likely progresses slowly over the years of one's life: appearing first as a simple diet, moving forward in the form of ednos, and possibly, sadly hitting many full on as anorexia/bulimia. If you do not agree with blogs or people that support the lifestyle of the eating disordered, please leave. This blog is not for you. Please do not judge me b'coz I support others through their difficultiesor b'coz I seek support myself, for we need friends and people to talk to about our problems just as you do. Please do not proceed to tell me what I am doing is wrong, I am unhealthy, I am going to die, I need to gain weight, etc. I know what I am and what I am doing, it is not for you or anyone to tell me. I mean no disrespect for any concern; however, gaining weight and simply eating will not help me. It will make me sicker by causing mental torments.

Monday, May 24, 2010

getting better...a bit

i actually kept with my restrictions taday =) .....welllll except for the time restrictions :( this morning, i should say afternoon, i always wake up late, he brought me gummy bears as a surprise so i ate some. then later i had a little bowl of ramen for breakfast, or brunch ^__^ for lunch i had 2 pieces of toast w/some strawberry jelly, no butter. and not too long ago i had honey nut cheerios for dinner and im not planning on eating a snack =) i feel so good today! i will get better with the time and i will keep it up! ^__^


11 Gummy bears: 55cal 2:19p
Ramen w/sesame oil, no soup: 160cal 2:55p
2 Slices of toast: 120cal7:47p
2tsp Strawberry jelly: 10cal 7:47p
3/4c honey nut cheerios: 110cal 10:20p
1/4c 2% milk: 60cal 10:20p

515cal eaten
485cal under :D

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