unsuccessful success

ok so good news, dinners over and i got away with taking 2 slices of pizza. i ate most of one and fed half of the other to the dogs. ahhh they come in handy ^__^ i made sure to eat more of the crust than the cheese and the pepperoni. then i just hung out for a little while and ate a 100cal ice cream...thennn he came in the room all happy and said "i got you something..." and handed me a crumb cake O.o sooo i ate it...ug im so fat! i know, i have to make up for it tomorrow. i SO have to!


Pizza: 269.3cal
Klondike 100cal ice cream sandwich: 100cal
Hostess cinnamon streusel cake: 170cal


460.7cal under
239.3cal eaten


thats supposed to be good considering i have a 1000cal limit per day...but i still feel like i broke my diet...especially most of it was pleasure food, bleh. theres no pleasing this food eating guilt. i hate it anytime i eat i feel guilty unless its a fruit or vegetable! even if it says its healthy, its for dietors, its low calorie, i still feel like i cheated my diet. i eat too much thats all there is too it. i see something i like and it just looks so good! i HAVE to get myself under control! everyone takes care of me and does everything for me -even if i dont want it- and i cant even take care of the one thing i can keep track of on my own! im so weak and immature -__-



think thin, think thin, think thin

eat to live dont live to eat