And my mind says to me:
You are not worth anything.
You do not deserve anything.
You do not need anything,
And don't you dare want anything.
Don't you dare!
You are nothing and undeserving of anything.
I think this is why I make plans to get myself something nice, or when I actually do get something for myself, I feel a dark stormy cloud of guilt hang over me. I've recently graduated to being able to buy myself produce and cheap litto flea market finds without guilt. But anything more than $20 is a major guilt shower!
Peri: my email is kii_puppy@ymail.com
Peri: my email is kii_puppy@ymail.com
You are worth things and you deserve treats. EVERYONE needs to be spoiled every once in a while. Regular pampering is a cornerstone to a healthy soul. Even if it's 'just' a fancy tea or some really nice shower gel.
ReplyDeleteI like how you're training yourself to get yourself nice things :D Screw the guilt, you DESERVE to be pampered and feel special!
Unfortunately for me when it comes to buying yarn I have no such self-restraint. Everything else bought new I have to justify and agonize over, with yarn my brain goes "OMG IT'S SO PRETTY AND SOFT AND GLORIOUS LOOK AT THOSE COLOURS I MUST HAVE IT!" /facepalm. Miles gets a little scared when we walk into yarn shops :x Last time I only bought ONE thing, but it was a $42 skein of Tough Yarns' laceweight kid mohair/merino in dreamy pale sunset-pinks and lavenders. I think it traumatised the poor boy a little!
Sending you tons of love and anti-guilt thoughts. Get yourself something nice because I SAID SO. No guilt allowed, you're being ordered :p
*hugs*