last night he kept acting all sad and sulky and i thought it was cuz of me being stubborn about my eating. but then he started asking me if i was mad and id say no and 15min later he'd ask again.
"are you mad at me?"
"no." in a innocent voice cuz i kinda was.
"well you were.."
"how did you know i was?"
"you cant hide anything from me."
"...."
half hour later
"are you mad at me?"
"no."
later
"i love you." sounding like he's checking if i do.
"i love you."
later
"still love me?"
"of course i still love you!"
later in bed
"im not used to you being mad at me..."
"stop it already, we made eachother equally upset."
"why were you mad at me?"
"you know why and if i say it your gonna get mad next." because you fucking made me eat and made my stomach fucked up! (my fucking stomach hurt into the next day because i couldnt purge enough!)
"ok...i gess we better burry it already."
"ya."
so i dunno. maybe he'll stop it for a while as long as i can eat enough to stay out of radar. so to him, today i ate 2 meals and thats good enough.
we had to go to the store and while we were getting in the car"want anything from mc donalds?"
"your going to mc donalds?? you?? your going to mc donalds?? wowww!" he absolutely hates mc donalds.
"ya, i gotta pick up food for J." his moms husband.
"oh..."
"imma get chicken nuggets." the only thing he'll eat from there.
"iii want ramen." trying to sound cute and innocent.
"....." he didnt react so i dont know if that was a ok or a here she goes again kinda thing.
in the drive through i debated french fries to make it look like im ok cuz im changing my mind, and i have a weakness for mc donalds french fries. but i just held my tounge, pictured the oil its submerged in and pictured it dripping when they take it out of the fryer. then i was safe and we were on our way home =) i made it through today!
1/2c oatmeal: 65cal 4:50p
3 baby carrots: 6cal 8:00p
1/2c oatmeal: 65cal 11:00p
chew/spit 1 apple danish: 190cal 3:30a
364cal under
136cal eaten
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