calculating again and a bit of thinspo that i LOVE!

today went pretty well i gess, ive stuck to my no purging promise so thass a look in the right direction. i ate a sandwich for breakfast (310), a half bowl of cream of wheat and a blueberry waffle for lunch (50+90=140)...i know, i so mixed up my breakfast vs luch right there XD ...and boyfriend got a job as a cook at a bar so he brought me home a burger which i ate a litto more than half of O.0 (410cal). so today is about 860cal or so...hurts to see the numbers add up but i will get the hang of it. i used a BMR calculator that my friend sent me and as long as i stay at/slightly under 1240 i will maintain. im starting to get control over that on verge of binging feeling. when i wake in the morning, i find myself planning 50-70cal meals to eat for breakfast and having to remember that i cant do that anymore, then i eat normally and feel like i want to purge. so, that i dont freak out or start purging again, im defo doing, like i said yeasterday, 3 small fist-size meals and 3 snacks a day and im going to stick to 110-130cal per meal/snack. that should be ok because itll still feel like im restricting. ill start on monday, make the new week the start of a better me...a hopefully better me...ok a physically better me anyway.

while boyfriend was at work today i took our italian greyhound, hyden, on a walk to the park =) i swinged for a bit then sat under a tree and watched the guys play basketball and the children play and a guy in the soccer field practice dribbling. the last to leave were the basketball guys. one of them fell and hurt his leg, his friend ran to get the car and he limped inside and they drove off to the doctor or home to put ice on it im gessing. since it was empty and getting dark we left for home. it was nice and i think its going to be a regular thing ^__^

i LOVE photography and i dont think i have ever made a post with a bunch of pics so here are my most favorite ones! enjoy, blueberries! (=^.^=)/




my ABSOLUTE favorite! i adore this picture! the ribbon is so beautiful!



this is my second favortie right next to the ginger with the ribbon in her beautiful hair.




i thought it was interesting, ive never seen inside a turtles shell before.