be new:

To be thin is to be beautiful, to feel beautiful, to be happy, to be new. 新しいになります。 I hope, someday, to see myself as others see me, and to be as light and happy as the leaves that blow in the wind or a beautiful balloon drifting up into the clouds...












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Hullo my little blueberry tea cups! ^__^ Thankyu for reading and being a part of my life. You help me so much. You give me more strength, determination, inspiration than if I were to be dealing with this alone and no one to speak of it to. I love and appreciate every one of you deeply! I hold each of you dear to my heart.

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ps.- I do not teach or wish to inspire eating disorder for it is a sickenss, not something that can be learnt. Eating disorder midset is something one is cursed with that most likely progresses slowly over the years of one's life: appearing first as a simple diet, moving forward in the form of ednos, and possibly, sadly hitting many full on as anorexia/bulimia. If you do not agree with blogs or people that support the lifestyle of the eating disordered, please leave. This blog is not for you. Please do not judge me b'coz I support others through their difficultiesor b'coz I seek support myself, for we need friends and people to talk to about our problems just as you do. Please do not proceed to tell me what I am doing is wrong, I am unhealthy, I am going to die, I need to gain weight, etc. I know what I am and what I am doing, it is not for you or anyone to tell me. I mean no disrespect for any concern; however, gaining weight and simply eating will not help me. It will make me sicker by causing mental torments.

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

why do i always miss?


i do SO hate periods, theyre untimed and unorganized! XD i spot every now and then so i think "better apply the torpedo" (aka- tampon) fire one! then come morning, nothing. and again spotting in the afternoon, "okayyy..." fire two! and again, nothing the next morining. so i figure "fuck it!" and dont use one. who bleeds on the fucking bed that night or on my knickers?! meee yayy! ...right! shouldve had a fire three! XD

yay! i posted a new look on LB FINALLY! haha. im still not exactly up to par but i may get there. its quite difficutl to get recognized there... haha im happy my shirt is an oversize style otherwise ewww my fat!

http://lookbook.nu/look/1000819-8-24-1

yesterday when i walked to the library i went to the eating disorder section of the non-fic books and spotted a book titled "Thin" by Lauren Greenfield. its quite good you should really check it out!

meal- ½ blueberry bagel: 130cal 4:30p
meal- 1 nikuman: 310cal 7:30p
meal- 3 grilled chicken strips: 180cal 10:30p
snack- ½c Post Selects Blueberry Morning cereal: 176cal 1:30p

708cal total

6 comments:

  1. gosh, yoo sure iz puuuurdy (hehe hillbilly accents are fun)
    i love the top by the way, im am OBSESSED with pictures of oversized tops on skinny girls. gah i cant wait to be able to pull off some of the stuff you wear.*secret jealously lol*

    tampons remind me of bath plugs...
    or wine corks...

    thank GOD we dont have to remove tampons with a cork screw! that would be such a hassle :P
    stay strong
    meg

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  2. good intake luv...
    I am on the mini pill and have been on and off my period for a month and a half. I wear a tampon everyday as I spott too...But at first the same thing happened to me..I though it was over..so no tampon..then blood on knickers and bed...Yuck!!

    so stay safe..wear panty liners...

    and I love the originality of yummy leftovers...
    x

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  3. ! ur thinspo for me! congrats u look so small!
    i am quite jelous also!
    xoxo
    stay stong!

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  4. Lovely pics! I love the ones of you on the train tracks also, super love the polka dot dress you are wearing in them! :)

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  5. I used to have the same prob, but birth control pills solved it for me!

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  6. yerah birth control is amzing
    ive been on the pill for years my period is still funny but it comes the same time every month well excpet last month when i was so sick

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