be new:

To be thin is to be beautiful, to feel beautiful, to be happy, to be new. 新しいになります。 I hope, someday, to see myself as others see me, and to be as light and happy as the leaves that blow in the wind or a beautiful balloon drifting up into the clouds...












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Hullo my little blueberry tea cups! ^__^ Thankyu for reading and being a part of my life. You help me so much. You give me more strength, determination, inspiration than if I were to be dealing with this alone and no one to speak of it to. I love and appreciate every one of you deeply! I hold each of you dear to my heart.

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ps.- I do not teach or wish to inspire eating disorder for it is a sickenss, not something that can be learnt. Eating disorder midset is something one is cursed with that most likely progresses slowly over the years of one's life: appearing first as a simple diet, moving forward in the form of ednos, and possibly, sadly hitting many full on as anorexia/bulimia. If you do not agree with blogs or people that support the lifestyle of the eating disordered, please leave. This blog is not for you. Please do not judge me b'coz I support others through their difficultiesor b'coz I seek support myself, for we need friends and people to talk to about our problems just as you do. Please do not proceed to tell me what I am doing is wrong, I am unhealthy, I am going to die, I need to gain weight, etc. I know what I am and what I am doing, it is not for you or anyone to tell me. I mean no disrespect for any concern; however, gaining weight and simply eating will not help me. It will make me sicker by causing mental torments.

Sunday, June 6, 2010

grocery shopping can be fun!

yay! we just got back from grocery shopping and im happy to say i bought nothing out of my safe foods list and i didnt want anything else besides what i went for! :D the days going good so far all ive eaten is a couple crackers! i keep looking at my belly and thighs and touching and pinching the fat when i start thinking about eating, it gets my mind back off food. then i grab my book and read or hop on the computer to keep busy. and i have crackers (12cal per) and a few mini whoppers (32cal) and hershey bars (67cal) in my purse. that way i can grab one if i get hungry while we're out, instead of letting the words "im hungry" slip out of my mouth and getting myself stuck in the greasy trap of fast food. i know, i know, the chocolate isnt a good idea -__- but i need the sweet instead of salty sometimes XD

2 Keebler Zesta crackers: 24cal 1:45p

976cal under
24cal eaten :D

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