fast.......fucking COMPLETED!!!

gess what girls! gess fucking what!! I FUCKING DID IT!!! i feel so excited and happy, i really did suprise myself yesterday! despite xxx wanting me to eat i didnt! i didnt give in, i stayed strong and did it for the sake of my body and proving to myself that i can, in fact, be a stronger person! thank you helesaurus , embre and Laura for your advice, ill definately use it! im such a nervous person and ive never been in this situation before where ive been found out by someone and not because i ratted my own self out :P i had ratted myself out to my mom once when i was 15 thinking she knew i was purging and i was watched like a hawk! but it was somewhat easy since she and my brother were at work/school 7hrs of the day.

i thought i was going to have no choice but to swallow a cracker because my fucking UTI came back last night (figures right) and i lost the pills that make the pain go away9another figures) so i couldnt drink anything to keep my stomach growling from being heard and i knew if he heard it he'd probably say "thats it! babe, eat!" so whenever i went to the bathroom i drank a little water. i took a couple benadryl which luckily for me knocked me out before my stomach growled too loud.

i really really dont want to eat today either! ive gotten a taste of what i can do and i want more! its the best thing ive ever tasted (or not hahaha) in my life! i want to fast for a week or more, i really do! unfortunately thats not a good idea :( i have think about how im going to do this because im still, no matter what, still not passing my 500cal limit! at eat as little as i can to keep him happy, carrots, celery, corn, green beans, peaches, soup if i must. haha ive stayed kinda strong about that low-fat ice cream i bought thats been in the freezer for quite some time. its not even 1/8th eaten haha!