ug, i dont understand why. i ate more than i needed to! it was an ok cal number (165) but it was too much food. it stuffed me so full i had to purge! i suppose i should be happy cuz that means my stomach has shrunk, but i felt like such a fucking fat ass! i felt horrible for not eating slowly or taking small bites and not stopping when my stomach before my stomach got full. i hate eating until i feel full or stuffed, it just leaves me feeling disgusting. it was so hard to throw it up too cuz i get so dam nervous. this house echoes bad cuz theres no carpet :/ im glad we have that fan thing in the bathroom cuz just turning on the water in the sink doesnt block out the noise enough and im a relatively quiet purger O.o i learned how to move/position my body and how to use my hands so my gag noises arent so loud, im glad for that! it also sucks cuz i still want some of that sorbert in there -__- but im saving that for tomorrow, it was going to be my reward for keeping on it, but i definately dont deserve it! lack of control = tighter restrictions!
2 Keebler Zesta crackers: 24cal 1:45p
1 ramnen w/sesame oil: 160cal 12:20a (purge 12:31a)
1 sheet seaweed: 5cal 12:20p (purge 12:31a)
811cal under
189cal eaten
165-10%= 148.5cal purged
40.5cal net total
2 Keebler Zesta crackers: 24cal 1:45p
1 ramnen w/sesame oil: 160cal 12:20a (purge 12:31a)
1 sheet seaweed: 5cal 12:20p (purge 12:31a)
811cal under
189cal eaten
165-10%= 148.5cal purged
40.5cal net total
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