be new:

To be thin is to be beautiful, to feel beautiful, to be happy, to be new. 新しいになります。 I hope, someday, to see myself as others see me, and to be as light and happy as the leaves that blow in the wind or a beautiful balloon drifting up into the clouds...












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ps.- I do not teach or wish to inspire eating disorder for it is a sickenss, not something that can be learnt. Eating disorder midset is something one is cursed with that most likely progresses slowly over the years of one's life: appearing first as a simple diet, moving forward in the form of ednos, and possibly, sadly hitting many full on as anorexia/bulimia. If you do not agree with blogs or people that support the lifestyle of the eating disordered, please leave. This blog is not for you. Please do not judge me b'coz I support others through their difficultiesor b'coz I seek support myself, for we need friends and people to talk to about our problems just as you do. Please do not proceed to tell me what I am doing is wrong, I am unhealthy, I am going to die, I need to gain weight, etc. I know what I am and what I am doing, it is not for you or anyone to tell me. I mean no disrespect for any concern; however, gaining weight and simply eating will not help me. It will make me sicker by causing mental torments.

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

power surge screwed up my pictures :P


man we left the laptop plugged in and the power went out, then when it went back on it screwed eveything up! it was on xxx's account so all the pictures i took on our trip back home and all the pics i took after that and all our videos, movies and music is all. gone! i was gonna use some of those photos i took for my alice corner :( im glad i still got everything that was on my account! all my thinspos and secret what-nots ^__^" we're gonna take it down to best buy tomorrow to see what they can do. i hope they can fix/restore it all! im gonna be mad if its lost for good :/ i think its still there though cuz the amount of memory taken up in the computer hasnt lowered any. im thinking it just needs to be fixed so we can access it.
i was walking downstairs with a flashlight, cuz i was too lazy to turn on the lights, i had my shirt tied up half-way cuz its so hot! when i looked down, i discovered another good thinspo :P its really gross to look at your sromach and thighs in light thats pointing in a downward angle :P ugg man i look like a fat fuck!


2 Keebler Zesta crackers: 24cal 1:55p
1 stalk celery: 6cal 5:20p
1 tsp Alouette brie: 45cal 5:20p
2 baby carrots: 4cal 5:20p
a piece of garlic bread: 70cal 10:45p (guilty pleasure but im dealing with it)
1/4c orange sorbet: 30cal 1:15p

821cal under
179cal eaten

1 comment:

  1. o hun im sorry that u lose all of that
    i really hope that best buy can fix it and get it all backf ro u

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